I changed my mind about changing my blog. I am too lazy for that. I guess there's nothing i can do about it. Its my blog, so if u dont like anything written here, kindly hit the small red cross on the top right hand.
All my dear frens, pls kindly have the minimal respect that watever i blog here remains here. It's all purely my tots and feelings and i chose to blog them out to ease the frustration within mi. Seriously, i see no wrong in tt. I am a human who have tots and feelings and i cant control the reaction when you all read them. As what i mentioned in one of my previous entries, all things in life are determined by the 90/10 Principle...

Now, it seems as though I am getting more out of control of my life. I have no idea wat i wanna achieve. I tend to think alot these days, not that it isnt something good, but too much thinking sure can drive people nuts.

oh.. watever..

Last weekend, i met up wif my poly classmates and sec sch frens.. I had a new haircut and so, it equals to a new mi I guess. All said i looked very different. Yup, I wanna be different. From now on, i must have a stronger personality, i must not let people climb over my head. At the same time, I must treat my loved ones for example my mom better. I must be alittle more "clever", in terms of - I should treat those whu treated mi well.. I know i kinda changed, but i hate people who take mi for granted and i am not going to be so stupid to let that happen again.

Notice that i did not quote my brother under my loved ones.. Well, simply bcos i think he doesnt give a damn about mi. The other day, his childhood fren, Kengyang came over. It suddenly dawned onto mi that Kengyang was more like a brother to mi. He even msg mi asking mi to be careful when i am going out.

20 years of blood relationship, n i did not receive any of those kind from him. Tell mi, How the heck am i supposed to feel close to him?

Never mind about that. The other day, I managed to clear things up with him. I cried alot, bcos I felt hurt by the way he handle things. And the next day, he proved to mi that he is not responsible even to account for himself. Its scary to think of it, how am i supposed to feel secure? Then again, I love him so much that I think i could never let him go..

oh.. brudders..